The Train Stories: No Sleep

photo-120“There is no sleep in this life” is what I wrote next to this image that I drew sometime back. We are constantly moving. Constantly changing. Constantly trying to better ourselves while failing twice as much.  Today I came across two quotes that stood out to me.  One from the movie, “The Chosen”. A beautiful movie. In the film, the father is working hard on his project,  and his son wants him to rest. With that, the father replies, “Only a life of meaning is worthy of rest”. That hit me. He is pushing himself to the limit and fighting for what he believes in. What does my life mean? I am here complaining about things with no depth while I could be working harder. Along with that quote I found one by Leonardo Da Vinci: ” I have offended God and mankind because my work didn’t reach the quality it should have”. With those two stuck in my head, I feel ashamed. It is too easy for me to slack off and not do anything. I can only hope that someday I will be worthy of my rest.


That one fire burning


Images pass by your eyes

It all seems like a dream

Fleeting hopes ad wishes

Till you fall asleep

Searching for meaning

And the gleaming light of day

With that one fire burning

To make all the fear go away

I see the ray of hope

That is peeking from your eyes

The one who doesn’t front

Who won’t believe the lies

The relationships you hold

Must be held and kept

Save the love and live

Please learn not to fret.

What are your dreams telling you?

Merrily, merrily, merrily…life is but a dream.

They say that the only difference between dreams and reality is that dreams are predictable. If dreams were like the world we live in, then we would not be able to distinguish the two as easily. I can not remember mine as well as the actual memories that I have, but with practice and a strong willed mind, I’m sure that anything is possible.
What is it that you believe about dreams? Are they really scattered emotions and thoughts in the subconscious mind? Or do they contain a deeper meaning that must be examined in order to be understood?
I believed that to be true to a certain extent, but I never gave it much thought. 
It was only until last month when I had a terrible nightmare of my sister dying. When I woke up, I was quite uncomfortable. But out of curiosity, and a bit of worry, I checked up some dream signs on the internet. To my relief, what I found out was that whoever appears in your dream, is not the actual person at all. All of the people you see are an essence of yourself. 
A close person or sibling dying is a picture of a past you. That person currently possesses a trait or a quality that you once had. It is something that needs to return, but a part of you is rejecting it.
My sister and I are five years apart, and I could not figure out what quality she would have that I have long lost. 
Then it hit me. In my dream, she did not die in a normal way. She died at the gym. A lot of people were running a marathon in a large room, and my sister decided to run backwards upstream and ended up getting trampled. 
Currently my sister is very adamant about exercising and works hard. That is exactly what I did in a past life. When I was her age, I trained and exercised every day and until I had pretty good physique. I was quite proud of my achievement, but I started working and became busy. I no longer had time to workout- or so I believed.
I make numerous excuses for why I discontinue working towards my goals. 
Do dreams really leave you messages for the morning waiting for you to uncover them? I suppose it would depend on the dreamer, but it helped me remember a part of myself I had forgotten. What I’ve concluded is that even my subconscious is reminding me that I should lay off of the cake.
What are your dreams currently telling you?

What are your fears?

What do our fears mean? This question grabbed my attention this evening.

We are taught in this life that fear is a negative thing, and must be something that we have to conquer. I have not thought about it too much, and quickly dismissed it as a natural reaction. But how about viewing it in a more artistic way? How about viewing fear as an amazing act of the imagination?

When we are children, we make up stories about things under our bed and creepy things lurking around in the night. An example in my life would be really wanting a cat when I was younger. I had seen the movie The Mummy, and I was just petrified of mummies from that time on. I desperately wanted a cat because I believed that was the only thing to ward them off. I would often imagine the things that would happen if a mummy would visit us. I created mental pictures and built a plot in my head.

What if we simply called our fears stories? They are unintentional in the way that we don’t even realize that we are making them up constantly. In our fears, the characters are ourselves and we predict all of the things that could go wrong. Our fears make us think about the future and measure possibilities.  We have the ability to time travel to the future. We start to worry and questions start being asked:

“What if I don’t do well at work today?”  “What if my love rejects me?”  “What if my plane blows up and I fall to the earth in a million pieces?” Et cetera. 

We have a choice to act on that fear based on a logical stand point. Think about why we have these fears because how we choose to read our fears is how our lives will play out. Fear makes us act. I hope we all make the right choices whenever fear presents itself.  

What are your fears? What are my fears…